Help, In a Funk & I Need To Get Out Of It!

Warning: this is my own pity party for a bit and then I promise it will get better.

Hello! It's been awhile and I have missed blogging. But lately, for some reason I have been in a funk and I don't know why. Part of it is the weather I'm sure (come on Spring), but the other part is just something in me. I am ready for a change and tired of being unsatisfied with me. I am tired of not having clothes to wear because they don't fit me or being self-conscious about what I am wearing. I want to be able to go outside for walks with Ayden and just in general be more active. I can't help that since it is cold and snowing or raining depending on the day. I know I am the problem and I need to change my outlook, so starting today NO MORE EXCUSES! I have a ton of them too. I am the only one who can change my attitude, so I am going to change starting today.

Does anyone else get like this? Help.

Here's what I'm going to do: I am going to exercise more and consistently. I am not a fan of the treadmill right now but too bad, it is going to help me lose weight and be more confident. Until I can go outside everyday, the treadmill is my exercise source. I am going to eat better, I do pretty well now but there is always room for improvement. Plus I have a wicked sweet tooth, I honestly believe if I did not like sweets I would be thin. I am seriously considering giving up sweets for Lent. I am going to state something positive about me everyday and take time for myself. I do not do that often enough and with David traveling for work I do put myself last. Even if it is only 5 minutes, those will be MY five minutes. I want to be healthier and better for me, David and Ayden, as well as the other child we hope to add to our family soon. OK enough of that, moving on.

I am also majorly PMS-ing. Yesterday Ayden was taking all of my CD's off of the shelf and I was looking though them. I found a CD I was looking for, thanks Little Man. It had a song on there I wanted to learn and sing to A. So I put the CD in and listened to most of it. Once it got to that song, I was just watching A playing and starting balling. I'm actually tearing up writing this now. Damn you hormones! Are you in suspense about what it is, well here you go. I love the Dixie Chicks and this song is so beautiful. I know there was a big uproar with Natalie Maines' comments about former President Bush, but we all have a right to free speech and she chose to speak her mind, deal with the consequences and move on. Too bad others haven't. I saw them in concert and Natalie has an amazing voice and Martie and Emily are great too. Hearing the background behind the song also brings tears to me. Enjoy!




I also found my Sara Bareilles CD that I had been looking for and another song, which is my all time favorite song is Gravity. That should of been the song I listed when I started this blog and we had to list our favorite song. The Allison Krauss song was the first song that popped in my head though, so I went with that. Anyways, I went and saw SB in concert when she played at the House of Blues, which in my opinion was a perfect venue for her because it was more intimate than a large arena. I got to meet her at a small meet and greet earlier that afternoon which was amazing. She played a couple songs, autographed CD's for us and I even got my picture taken with her!

When she played Gravity, it gave me goosebumps. She was so nice and I hope she tours again soon with her new album out. Here is the song:



So those were two things that made me weepy last night. Enough about that.

I am so ready for the weekend! Some reasons why I am thankful the weekend is here:
1) David will be home from his business trip so we'll get to spend the weekend together.
2) I am getting some "me" time on Saturday and decided to treat myself to a pedicure. The last pedicure I had was before Ayden was born, so almost a year ago. My feet are in desperate need of some TLC.
3) Good friends are coming over Saturday night.

I hope you all have a great weekend!